I HELP WOMEN END DIETING FOREVER, UNLOCK THEIR INNER BADASS, GET STRONG & LOVE THEIR BODIES (FOR REAL).
"But the most important thing Rachel taught me is how to love myself."
-SCR Client, Maria
While I wanted to tell him that ‘being a homosexual’ is not a choice. And that it would be 1000000x easier to just date men. I refrained and let him continue. I also couldn't stop reciting mean girls "And on the third day, God created the Remington bolt-action rifle, so that Man could fight the dinosaurs..... And the homosexuals. AMEN."
You know how people say movement will help ease anxiety and depression? It's true, it will. That doesn't mean that it's way to get into that habit. What a cruel cycle. Movement helps ease the body and mind, but when the body and mind sin't at ease it's hard to begin actions that help.
Accepting my body came in very small moments. Moments where I began to chose what was okay, and not conform to what society says is they want.
When your best friend comes to you and says “I fucked up. I cheated on my boyfriend, and I feel disgusting. “ You see her pain yes? You don’t say “KAREN YOU DUMB BITCH!”. Well, that isn’t the first thing you say at least. You hold her in her pain, and see her without judgement.
You, yourself, are NOT the exception to this loving kindness you so freely have within you. You aren't that special that you aren’t just as human as Karen is to accept this kindness.
Are you craving some ease, confidence and love within your body?
Yes? Of course. But, you also don't want to spend a ton of money on self help books, masks and trips to the spa?
I got you girl, don't worry.
What if I told you that you could eat pizza or have wine without guilt?
Would you roll your eyes, waiting to hear what BS falls from my mouth? Or would you be open to trying something completely different than anything you’ve ever done before. Because at this point, you’re open to trying anything, no matter how out there it sounds—if it means you can stop obsessing about food.
I’m sure you know heartbreak, even if the decision to end a relationship is yours, your heart still hurts. Hurt is a cute way to talk about. Heartbreak felt like being okay for milliseconds, and then being hit by a large semi that erupted all of your feelings in your body, making you feel every single piece, one at a time. Like you can’t breathe, and can’t feel, but you can feel everything all at once. Like you can’t eat, because your body feels too full of hurt. Like you may actually die from the pain your heart is experiencing.
I'm falling in love with summer and it's not even fully summer yet. I just realized another thing as I'm typing this, I'm falling in love with summer because this is the first time that I've had the kind of freedom I do now since the summer when I was 15. Ohmygoodness. That was the last summer I spent being outside, playing, and reading. Ugh, I read so much that summer.
So here you are, coming up on a day that celebrates the magic of mothers but every card you pick up doesn’t feel right. You don’t feel like there's a card that says I love you, but I’m hurt, and I don’t feel this magic or connection with you—but I’m not supposed to say that because you gave me life.
If you find yourself being short with people and holding back how you feel because it feels vulnerable, scary and uncomfortable, I get it . You're not alone. But...you kinda, gotta take action so the same behaviors don't keep showing up and so you can actually be IN your relationship/friendships etc.