Six years ago I called my dad and told him that I wanted to start a business online that worked solely with women. I told him that I wanted to create what I needed, what I couldn't find.

A place for women to learn how to create healthy relationships with food, movement and their body. A place where women were guided 1:1 in a safe space, without judgement. A place where women could be met where they're at.

Your journey back to self won't ever be found in MyFitnessPal or a workout program. It will be found when you tune in, challenge the beliefs you have about your life, and begin to rewrite your story. 

I played with his hair. Which is long, that he wears in a bun. 

He looked up at me, while I ran my fingers through his hair and I don't know what he was thinking, but all I know is that it felt like he was looking right into me. I wanted to look away because it  felt so intimate but I didn't.
 

Unconditional love can change your life. And I hate saying that, because it's like did I need them to love me, to see myself more clearly? I don't know, I don't think so. It's not her love that helped me arrive to a deeper sense of home, and love within my life and body. But it was the freeness of it  that offered me a a gentleness with inside of myself. 

It wasn't the cheese board itself that brought upon this moment, though that was phenomenal. It  was the fact that for most of my life, I had spent so much time thinking about my body, or what someone else was thinking about my body (which they probably weren't at all.), that I hadn't ever just lived. 

The night before the movie released and I couldn't take it anymore, I was a volcano about to erupt and I broke up with my then boyfriend. It was a long time coming, but I had to do it because it just wasn't right anymore. It had nothing to do with the release of the movie, just a woman who was tired of being a ghost in her own body.

You know when you're in the depths of your feelings and everything just feels so hard? Maybe your relationship just ended and you feel like you'll never find someone else again. Or, you're feeling so upset in your body and like you're never ever going to make the changes that you want to. 

I called my girlfriend and told her that I was going home. She knew this was coming, she knew the whole time, but I think she was afraid to say it. Because if she said it, she knew that I would have agreed and probably gone home sooner. She left work and came home and upon her arrival she begged me to stay. I knew her heart was breaking, and mine was too as I said no. I had to go home. Sometimes I wonder if it’s harder to love me, knowing that Cooper will always come first. How hard this must be for my partners, and particularly how hard this was for her. She knew me as ‘Rachel in New York’ not, ‘Rachel the Mom’. I don’t blame her for begging me to stay. I remember crying and as she asked ‘why?’ and all I could say was that I had to. I couldn’t explain it in a way that would have made her heart hurt less. But my heart also hurt, resenting her ask of me.

On my way home I started to cry at this stoplight, and as I looked to my right, I saw the wedding chapel that I got married at almost 6 years ago. Tears turned into laughter, which turned into joy. 

Maybe now you've finally taken the plunge and have said yes to intuitive eating, or maybe you're just dipping your toes in the idea of it. First, I'm proud of you babe. This is no easy feat when the rest of the world is telling you to do something different. 

But maybe, you're feeling a bit stuck. You're open to the idea of it all, but you're getting lost or frustrated in some areas that are new to you and you don't know how to navigate it all? I get it. 

Let's put your freak out to a halt and get through these hard parts, below are 3 different situations that I frequently help my clients work through.