Miss.Honey was the gold standard of women that I would choose if I could have picked a mom. She was kind, gentle and compassionate and I would watch Matilda over and over again. Missing my mom, but also being comforted through the screen of Miss.Honey's kindness.
It always made me so happy. Not the "oh thats a happy moment kind of happy" but like a whole body filled of joy and lightness kind of thing.
Maybe it was liking Matilda and Miss.Honey so much that made me always just love the word, and everything about honey. It held a sense of goodness when I thought of it.
So last week I found this shirt that said honey and I had to get it, then the next day I went to put it on and head out the door. Randomly before I left though, I checked FB and I saw there was a donut shop that was doing a pop-up near by. Their name? Tupelo.
"Tupelo Honey is the gold standard by which all other honey varieties are measured. For two weeks every spring, White (Ogeche) Tupelo Trees in the Southeastern swamps bloom with fine sunburst-shaped flowers that glisten with nectar. Savannah Bee Company Tupelo Honey has buttery undertones and a mellow, clean-finishing sweetness. It's like a thick, slow-moving river of liquid sunshine."
So basically, being me, I took this as a sign that my deep for honey needed to somehow intertwine the joy and light it brings with SCR in a way that kind of made sense. But I run this thing, so I suppose it doesn't have to make sense to you. But I wanted to start making Honey Thoughts a weekly thing, and I wanted you to know why.
Each week I'll be sharing the goodness from my week, things, people and places that made me happy.
I'm going to this new gym that I like but also makes me nervous because I don't like being bad at things, and fitness is where I typically feel like I excel. Which is by total accident because I was raised in it, so I couldn't not know it.
In the workouts for this week, I saw we were going to practice handstands on Friday and I 100000% was committed to not going to class on Friday. But low and behold, I forgot and showed up on Friday.
The coach wanted us to practice kicking up into a handstand to the wall and I was like fuck that, no thank you.
Being scared and brand new, I asked for another modification, so he gave me one and it was HARRRRDDD. But I did it.
Then I went home and practiced more drills.
My 15 year old self would have literally left the workout and gone home and sat in a bunch of self loathing thoughts because I won't 'good' at first try.
I kind of like this being new thing. I still wanted to vom before I had to be awkward in class as at something new, but I did it.
Bees & Meditating
While waiting for a client I found out some super scary news that sent me into a panic, and so I decided to not make excuses about how I'll 'meditate later' and I did it right there in the grass, 7 min before my clients where going to show up. I head bees buzzing around me which wasn't very calming, but this guided meditation by Gabby Bernstein is like gold to my soul. I also took my shoes off which is what my dad tells me to do to feel more grounded and it was a good moment.
Nico Tortilla's Podcast, The Love Bomb is one of my favorite. I started listening to it because he talked about his sexual fluidity, which as I explore my own sexuality, I loved being able to feel connected in someway to someone else—you know, that whole not wanting to feel alone thing?
Nico has someone new on each week who falls somewhere on the LGBTQ spectrum, and this one with Leyna Bloom was just so good. They talked about her transition, love, and life.
Cooking Like An Adult
I haven't made any recipes really, I use to make cake with my nana when I was younger, and then when I started SCR I would create my own recipes, but I haven't you know, followed something that wasn't mind before. Mainly because in my recipe creating days I didn't want to 'copy' someone elses recipe, but DAMN have I been missing out.
The pros were that I didn't need a lot of ingredients and this fed me all week. I made this vegan lasagna from Hummusapien and adding some chicken sausage to it (I only made the vegan because I can't eat dairy).
This is my new honey shirt that I love, and me getting ready to eat my donut from Tupelo. It was a hazelnut buttercream that I fell in love with, and enjoyed with some eggs and bacon.
Right now, writing this blog, eating pumpkin spice chocolate chip pancakes while watching Grey's. I use to be so afraid of writing things that weren't 'on brand' and then I realized how kind of empty I felt. I love educating, and sharing the non-BS, important things on movement, relationships with food and your body—but I also love sharing just life. So this isn't on brand and I'm eating, writing and watching all at once, which some would say would be 'distracting'. But this is my normal, and my food freedom, and my very real life that I'm so happy to honestly share with you.