When I first started meditating I would get so upset with myself. I thought I had to shut off my inner dialogue, I would get pissed and quit when I couldn't stop the chatter. Try again, end the same. Until I really thought to myself, SO many people are doing this and are rocking true happiness and finding peace within themselves--I'm going to make this happen. I wanted what I saw everyone else had, so that was my driving motivation. Do you know what I'm going to say next? I'm sure you do. "What you seek is seeking you." Silly me, chasing what I already had.
How did I actually learn to meditate though? I tried just sitting in silence, and now I can do that. Though when I first started I used this video by Gabrielle Bernstein. I love her, and I love that this guided meditation was short and was just what I was searching for.
It's not about shutting off the noise, it's not about judging how long you can sit there for. For me, it's about connecting deeper with myself, with my light. Even those 5 short min with Gabby, I finish feeling more me.
May this video help you in every way you need.
I'll end with the prayer my dad said to me every night growing up: Let the light guide you, heal you, fill you and protect you for you highest and best good. May you have sweet sweet dreams, and may you always be safe.